in the arms of death

I've heard your voice,
I've seen your attitude
But all I can think of
Is you promising me
Of a future with you in it.
They say if you miss someone,
Sometimes, it's a sign that you're
Slowly moving on.
But I don't wanna move on.
I want you back,
Albeit I never had you
In the first place.
My darling,
Please let me in.
Let me see the pearls
That shine within you.
You lock me out
And I knock
And knock
And knock,
Desperate for the key
Or for you to open the door
And let me inside.
I pound on the door..
No one's opening.
I sling to the cold floor,
Tears streaming
Down my cheeks.
I scream,
I kick at the door.
Let me in, darling!
Can't you see, darling,
That I'm in deseperate need
Of you?
I'm sorry, darling..
My hands scan
The cold surface
Of the cold floor,
My legs thrusting
Frantically.
I'm sorry, darling..
All I can see
Are your eyes,
Asking if I'm Ok,
My nodding quietly.
Oh, my darling,
Aren't you aware
Of the war within me?
Oh, my darling, how I wish
For the ability
To withstand the blows
You aim at my core.
But I can only endure
The pain for so long,
I can't be a fighter forever
For even wars have endings.
Aren't you aware of the fire
You added wood to?
Aren't you aware
Of the knife
I'm holding
To my throat?
Let me in!
You're not glancing
My way anymore.
The words leaving your lips
Are the death of me.
The last thing I see
Before the infinite,
Peaceful,
Unending darkness
Are your furrowed brows
And your disapproving eyes.
I'm sorry, darling.
Will you grant me
The gift of forgiveness?
I guess
I'll never find out.